Monday, October 19, 2009

《结绳记事》- 席慕蓉

有些心情,一如那远古的初民
绳结  一个又一个的好好系起
这样  就可以
独自在暗夜的洞穴里
反复触摸  回溯
那些对我曾经非常重要的线索
落日之前  才忽然发现
我与初民之间的相同
清晨时为你打上的那一个结
到了此刻  仍然
温柔地横梗在
因为生活而逐渐粗糙了的心中

Tuesday, October 06, 2009

imported XVI

启发营.. 启发=)

April 7th, 2009


jz on the way back from alpha camp, our dear 团长 mr成杰 made me (i mean, encouraged me) write an essay to share my feelings. so here it is


希伯来文“以马内利”意即“神与你同在”。。。

一直都是个感性的人,尤其在唱诗赞美我们的大能主,或是分享时光,常会泪洒现场。从听到的多方面资讯,想着:是圣灵吧。但是都没有肯定的信心。

启发课程让我印象最深刻的该是启发营。许是因为本来参加的目的就是要认识圣灵,那两天的课程让我更加贴近上帝。讲道时常常听到关于圣父与子的知识,鲜少深入探讨圣灵的课题,因此就希望透过启发课程更加认识他。但是,此路坎坷。因为那时适逢我KoK类似simulasi的tournament, 占了全科的70%。但是因为起初还没被校方通过,想着或许会有变数,就先不要做那杞人多担心,给自己增添忧虑。

到了去启发营的前一个星期,我期盼的奇迹没有出现。当一切成定局时,觉得非常非常无奈。自认肯定无法去启发营了,想着或许上帝要我留在团契帮忙吧,也就接受了这“定局”。但是,发现上启发课的时候,心一再拖延,不想告诉组长我不行去。说出代祷事项时,理所当然地就说了这件事。

出乎我意料地,泪盈满了眼眶。为了不被人发现,低下头把话说完了。祷告时,落泪了。当时才发现自己有多渴想参加。之后,经过了多番思考,得到了结论。我根本就不想留在团契看着。圣灵呼唤着我,要我去贴近祂,认识祂,了解祂,经历祂。眼泪乃是祂的坦白,也是心的真正渴望。

当下,决定去挑战KoK的教练!我的意思是,问一问我可否缺席2/3的时间。很可笑吧?看似不可能,但是,神的道路高过人的道路,神的意念高过人的意念。恳切流泪祷告后,打了那通电话。教练竟语气平淡地表明他不介意。

你无法想象我当时的兴奋。心里不停地感谢主。为了确定,重复问了许多次,教练在第三次才说,会失去出席率的分数,但我才管他呢。圣灵的感受才重要。很兴奋地告诉了团契的朋友,大家都很为我高兴。咱的团长说:那是奇迹。是啊,是奇迹。祂所做的一切都有祂的时间。

在启发营,圣灵果然带领我更加认识了祂。许多曾经的疑问都得着解答,也明白了我曾经的感动与经历。

在和过往的罪恶与枷锁做了切断的祷告和宣告后,全身也着实轻松了不少。我想,每个人应该都有他们不想让人知道的罪,只因那是最深层,最真的自己。但是,在不断和神祷告后,竟能很轻松地和组长分享自己最大的软弱。感谢主。。

那晚和大专的查经和讨论也让我们更加靠近彼此,也让我看到自己有那么,那么多事奉的机会。

对于能出席这启发营,心中有的是无限,无限的感恩。若不是祂,这一切都不会成就。

最后,请让我以保罗的劝勉做总结:“不住的祷告,凡是谢恩。。。不要消灭圣灵的感动。”(帖前五:17-19)

imported XV

L.O.V.E?

March 9th, 2009

draft for my speech comm

Love, of course, as we all know, does not only refer to the kind of feeling between the two different sexes. Or, as time evolves, generation changes, it exists in such “prohibited” way between the same sex. Well, it’s a really wide and complicated field I’d like to exclude in my topic today.

This evening, I’d like to talk about the kind of LOVE between friends, in the family, and between different sexes. Researches show that the diversity of race, country, sex, family background, education etc. comes with a big difference in the way the population expresses love.

Generally, we can say that the east and west have their own way of expressing love. The easterners are known to be more conservative, shy and afraid to show their true feeling. Even though the love is known by the other party, we just cannot say the word. “I like you” is easy. … but “I love you”? just kill them. Especially the elders, like my parents, if one day I go home, or even if I just call them, and say “love ya” before hanging up, I’m sure there’ll be REALLY worried about me. Like I just decided to kill myself.

This is actually our ancestors’ fault. If in the olden days, they have chosen to talk their children into doing something, instead of just beating, canning or forcing, I guess the situation would be way different. The fathers in those times chose to be a strict one due to their man’s pride. Saying “I’m your father, just listen to what I say and obey”. Now, the word “obey” is crucial. Children will think, “right, I’ll obey.” But they never RESPECT or learn that the strict and fierce father who actually loves them dearly in the heart. The mother, though, always plays the caring part. That’s why we’re more attached to mothers and more willing to tell our mother the secrets and whatever there’s in our heart, if we’re ever going to do so.

I think it’s really weird that we kiss and hug babies and kids. But as they grow up, the kissing just stops. Now I come to think of it, maybe, maybe the kids become rebellious and leave. This is how the environment affects us. Even though we still love our parents the same way, peers’ jeers make us embarrassed. Perhaps they really think you’re childish, or maybe they are just envious or jealous.

Sometimes, the kids don’t leave because of the hormones. The rebellious thing, you know. But because they want to grow up. It’s funny how homo sapiens are never satisfied with the way they are. When they are young, they’ll say “I wish I’m 21, so I can go in casinos”. When they REALLY are 21, they wish they can go back school and enjoy those days without worries, under parents’ shelter. My 85yo grandma always says that, of all the things I’ve gone thru, being old is the most difficult thing. Seems like human beings will never be satisfied with how you are, so, a little advice here, don’t try to be perfect. You’ll always find a fault in yourself.

Ok, back to the topic. So.. kids leave because they want to be independent. I’ll never forget that when I was in kindergarten, my mum used to take my hand and walk me to my class. But one day, I don’t know what went wrong with my little brain, I told them I could walk in by myself. And I regret the words til now. Since then, I was forced to be independent. Luckily, I think I do well. Just feeling lonely sometimes.. One point here, easterners never kiss goodbye. On the other hand, westerners, as we can see in movies and dramas, they kiss each other when they meet, when they part, when they are upset, when they are happy, blah blah blah. They show their care and love by actions. They don’t think it weird to be kissing in public. It’s their own world.

Besides, they talk a lot. I mean, they tell what bothers them in their heart. We tend to keep our secrets close underneath our skin here, but it’s different with the westerners. Everything they have, they will need to spill it out! Their happiness, upset, even anger.

Between friends, in my opinion, they complement our family. Things we can’t confess to our family members, we tell our friends. If the family’s like a strong rock supporting us, friends are like those little breeze who makes our lives happier and better. When we quarrel with our family, we either deal with it alone, or we go to our friends. Friends tend to give comfort, nice words and a strong shoulder for you to lean on.

The way we love our friends is interesting too. Before we know each other that deeply, we converse with kind words, trying to be nice, always talk with a smile like the Sun and all the spotlights are on you. If the friendship turns out well, the two people become close and they become near-family. Words are not always nice now. There may be harsh words to keep you on the wrong path. Yeah, it’s all for your own good. But, my friend, I’d like those words to be softened a bit. After the incident, we turn out to treasure the friend. For their words support us and hold us on the right way.

Now, the most interesting relationship there ever is. Between opposite sexes. God created Adam and Eve, so don’t ask me why “opposite sexes”, please. That’s what we call “straight”.

In courtship, there are a lot of ways to win a person’s heart. One of my friends recently told me that he likes someone. But he’s gonna wait to make sure if it’s love. However, he’s already made the first move. He already got the phone number. I think in this era, if you wanna win someone’s heart, getting the 10 numbers is essential. You can call, or use the modern way, SMS. I think it serves as the easier way as well. And I think it’s sneaky. It’s cheap, so you can send as many as you like, saying whatever you want, without seeing the other party in person. Perhaps you say, “oh I’m shy” so, just send an SMS. Type the characters, I think… I’m in love with you… and then, add an emoticon showing ur blushed face. Easy. Yeah. Perhaps it’s more efficient than the long, long letter Mr Darcy wrote to Elizabeth in P &P. However, it’s still lousier than the face-to-face confession he made. I’m sure many of you know the novel, or ever watched the movie. “In vain have I struggled. It will not do. The feeling will not be repressed. You must allow me to tell you how ardently I admire and love you.“

So, besides phone calls and SMSes, there are still many other alternatives. MSN, love letters, e-mails, etc. It’s for a good purpose actually. To get close, know each other better and make sure if he/she is the right person. Better than regretting after your marriage. And then, you go on dates, hold hands, kiss, and it goes on. Those physical contact, according to scientists, are needed. One of the Five Love Languages come up by Dr Gary Chapman is physical contact. It gives a feeling of secure and loved. The other four are precious time spent together, gifts, actions, and words.

Eye contact is also one important thing. Like, when I stare at you, lovingly, you feel shy, or, embarrassed, and you turn away.But I heard there are guys who have those electric eyes, when they stare at you, you just get sucked in and, guess what, you fall in love! I dunno how long this love will last, it’s another topic I guess. But I believe eye contact can deliver your love to your beloved one.

Love makes the world beautiful. It doesn’t matter what kind it is, it makes human a better human. Emphathy, is also a kind of love. Sacrifices, prove how deep the love is. Sometimes, we get hurt by love, by those words and actions. But I’m grateful I’m loved.

imported XIV

my lovely ankle II


December 2nd, 2008


i went to “hing hua mu” again yesterday. guess wat she said =) jz like i expected, i’m allergic to the herbs she put on.. *sighs

so now, my darling ankle is swollen like hell. like it’s gonna burst.. i went to Rejang Medical and spent RM54 to get the medication and stuff. the doc kept on saying it’s a severe allergy coz i got blisters and stuff. then he applied cream and bandaged it. again, it’s bundled up!! cis. Miss Ankle just tot it could be free finally.

the thing i’m worried now is whether i’ll still be able to go to sarikei tomorrow. i really wanna go meet them! feeling super down now -.-

p/s i wanted to show u my bare foot without the bandage but am afraid you’ll throw up. trust me, IT’S GROSS

imported XIII

my lovely ankle
November 29th, 2008



ok, i sprained it. my ankle. right ankle.

oh please please, baby, please recover. u hurt me so dearly.. u’re making me feel like dying.

it’s really stupid how it happened. i sprained it when i was TRYING to play tennis. notice the word “trying”? yeah, i haven’t even hit a ball before it “pah tah”.. i can even hear the sound in my head right now.

and, the worse thing is, my left knee is also wounded. so, it hurts even more when i’m trying to move around. normally, people will hop using the “unsprained” leg but mine hurts when i do so..

just now i went to “hing hua mu”’s place to heal it. ohhhhh she was trying to “twist” it like what those chinese doctors try to do in the old-fashioned tvb dramas. i was literally laughing with pain.. guess she could feel my agony that she just wrapped it up with the smelly stuff. and i was like phewwwwwww..

the thing is.. i need to go to her again on tuesday. ARGGHHHHHH!!!! please pray for me.

imported XII

Home Sweet Home

November 20th, 2008


no matter what happens, home is your last and only resort.

no matter who hurts you, home will shed its protection over you.

no matter when you feel down, home is open 24/7.

no matter how imperfect it is, home is irreplaceable.

no matter where you are, home is with you in your heart..

imported XI

travelling with “Aleo”

October 13th, 2008

well, i know it’s been the second week after i came back from this super nice trip, but forgive me for writing about it, k, emoQ?

first of all, wanna show my big gratitude to Aleochemistry for letting me join the trip, and trying to convert me to one of the Aleo’s. well, i’m sorry to say that you failed LOL

i went to three places during the trip. stayed for a day at Genting, 3 days in Malacca, and then spent the rest of the trip in Penang. Another series of gratitude to Aleo’s. Thanks to KC for the accommodation, and WQ for bring us around in Malacca. Thanks to Peik See and her parents for giving us shelter and food (whole lots of food) in Malacca, and thanks of Haw Ge for taking us around.

Genting is.. well, it’s complicated. We are all disappointed ‘coz we didn’t get to play much (almost none) of the outdoor park due to the heavy rain and fog. However, it was a nice experience to go SS out in the cold weather. And, the terrifying yet funny “Truth or Dare” stay-up night. It caused HongSan to become a laughter of a stupid joke bout “Left-Right Hand”.. *sighs I’m gonna kill Haw Ge if anyone else knows about it. Then, the next morning, Bie Bie and i got up earlier than the others, so we went to find some food for breakfast.. Ate sandwiches, dim sum and a cup of cappuccino. Well, it’s true it’s expensive -.-

Oh yeah, HongSan ate at Mr Teppanyaki for lunch on the 1st day. Tempura Bento set.. wow.. i think it includes many kind of food groups we need, and it’s indeed tasty! Then, for the lunch on the 2nd day, i had Ramen. Its soup is indeed great. We went down to wait for the bus to KL Sentral after the lunch.

We kinda split at KL Sentral as some are going back to their own hometowns and UKM. HongSan followed those going to Malacca. The bus trip is kinda torturing as the bus seat was small, and “thanks” to Mum for giving me the long legs and sufferings i got from it. We went to visit the old buildings in Malacca, of coz. And HongSan went to sing K for the 1st time in my life. WQ and KC brought us to taste many great stuff, eg. lok lok in curry, fried clam, kuey teow, steamboat & BBQ buffet, Bak Kut Teh, etc.

On the 3rd day, we split again, and HongSan followed those going back to Penang. On arriving Peik See’s house in Bkt Mertajam, Peik treated us with homemade mooncakes and dumplings.. and that kind of foresaw the 4kgs gaining of HongSan’s weight.. Horrible ne~ Peik See’s mum cooked really nice home-cooked food for us including healthy soups, red bean soup, green bean soup, etc.

Besides, Peik and Haw Ge also brought us around to try local dishes. Delicious, of coz! HongSan also went to Sakae Sushi for the 1st ever time in her life. We ordered stuff like mad and, well, the bill is acceptable. Each of us paid around RM35. I tried Junsu’s fav Hitsumabushi. It’s not the original one in Fukuoka but it still tastes good :) Oh, and HongSan tried BigApple for the 1st ever time in her life as well. Well, regarding food, what can HongSan say other than “NICE!!” ? 8 of us divided into 2 groups, buying the 12 pieces set. And then, we passed the doughnuts around and each of us took a bite of them.. Guys, remember, food tastes even better when they are shared with people you love =) basically, all food HongSan had during the trip is shared among friends, so that actually boosted their great taste.

An unforgettable memory is on a Thur morning that we planned to go to the Penang beach to enjoy the sunrise. We started our journey at 4am, but SHA SHA SHA.. heavy rain! So we had to go to 7-Eleven, ate and drank some hot stuff, and used the toilet. Later, we stayed in the car and played some more Truth and had some talks.. Later, we only got to stay at the beach for around 10 mins due to the rain which started falling again. Fish brought us to eat dim sums after that. The egg tarts there are great, and so are the other food.. Great is the word.

Really funny that most of my memories are about the food we tried LOL. But, guess it’s not surprising, knowing what a person HongSan is..

The trip is a great experience, letting me have my fun and “stupid” moments =) It makes HongSan even more homesick, though.. Throughout the trip, Bie, Mich and HongSan are constantly talking bout Sibu’s food and places.. We really miss home

imported X

innocence?

January 22nd, 2008


recently, i took up a part-time job as an english tutor, teaching upsr and grade one students. well, of course i discovered something since this entry exists.

the class started that day. i distributed two test papers for the students. i gave them separately, meaning two pieces for each table since there are two students at each table, and then another two of other kind. when i was taking the attendance, some students told me a girl was crying. so, i went to her.

"Are you not feeling well?"

she shook her head.

"Did you lose something?"

shook her head again.

"Someone bullied you?"

again, shook her head.

"Can you tell me what happened?"

she pointed at the papers i just distributed. she got the same two..


.......
.......
(let me remain silent in proportion to the shock and "three lines" in my heart)


though i was shocked, i reacted quite quickly. i just exchanged hers with her partner’s and said, "see, you got the right ones."

she looked up and wiped away her tears, looking as if nothing happened. there was innocence in her face, but i couldn’t wipe away the "three lines" on my head like she did with her tears.

anyways, i should envy her. for it’s something the world has stolen from me. innocence

imported IX

that’s not me!!

August 17th, 2007

1st trial’s just ended. was satisfied with it going on till that day. Thursday when i took maths 2 paper. totally spoilt my mood. i have been contented with this exam, really, dunno, maybe coz of my prayers. but maths 2 nearly broke me down.

i got 81/100 last time and so it’s been the subject i cared the most, and really want to do better. that’s why i got too much pressure on me and my hands start shaking halfway thru the paper. in fact, i’ve got more time, enough maybe. but too much pressure. i kept thinking what if i can do all the questions, but just the time matter? pressure’s really a terrible thing. in the past, i’ll jz skip those questions i considered out of my ability, finished up the other questions, then if there’s time left, i’ll contentedly go back and relaxingly think about them again. and luckily, with that peace in mind, sometimes the solutions pop up. but this time, i couldn’t do that.

and that nearly spoilt my thursday. i still gotta revise my PA but felt really down. can’t reli study so i prayed and tried harder. got a headache

but, on the way to church’s night prayer, something hit me :P and i was literally laughing at myself. my brain told me, "hey, what are you doing? this is not you?" and i realized i let results and exams took too much over me. that’s not me! why did i let exam get hold of me? i shouldn’t be in this situation. that’s not me. and so, i felt really relieved, and felt contented to study my pa.

and i realise the limit of human’s ability. though i tried really hard to make myself feel better that afternoon, it won’t work.

Pray and leave your burden to Jesus and the world will be beautiful as ever. God will give you what you REALLY need.

human race thinks they can do whatever they want, achieve whatever they wish. but the scar in soul cannot be healed by human’s doing, Jesus Christ comforts your heart. God gives you soul, and the food of soul comes from Him.

imported VIII

what are you doing?

July 26th, 2007


a team of missionaries is hold hostage by the Talibans in Afghanistan. One of them was shot dead.

what are you doing? while people are dying, living for God’s glory, saving people from Satan. are you still playing online games? eating kfc? spending on Levi’s? complaining about school teachers? yelling at your parents? giving hard times to your siblings? …… while others are suffering from diseases and cancers? while others are heading to the hell without ever getting the chance to listen to the gospel and God’s word? while the poor are looking for just a meal per day? while our brothers and sisters are being tortured ‘coz they stood up for Jesus Christ?

What are you still doing?

WHAT AM I DOING?

imported VII

Temptations

July 22nd, 2007


Weird that whenever i planned a time for cramming books, every bad thing, eg. fictions, MSN, Friendster, YouTube, food, jogging, cooking, TV, blah blah blah.. starts seducing me. hate it, but what can i do?

1st trial is coming.. will i survive? everytime during exams, i’ll say i must start studying earlier next time, i must study all of the syllabus next time… and for SURE, they never came true :)

imported VI

my first ever hiking

July 15th, 2007


first ever, yeah, and probably the last.

i’m sorry to all those characters in those hikers-stuck-up-in-mountain movies, sorry to those guys in "Hills Have Eyes", for doubting their feelings, and wanna give my highest respect to those who’ve ever climbed any mountains, given Mt. Everest, Kinabalu, or even Gunung Jerai. now i understand the hardwork.

It’s really, really terrible, being in the midst of the forest, wondering where the exit is, and hearing people in front shouting "IT’S THE END!" but found out those were white lies.

at first, i thought i could handle it. quick pace, but after a few hills, oh no, no words can describe my feelings then. you need to experience it yourself. it really sucks getting stuck in the midst of the forest, worst when it’s in the midst of the forest in hills. i can clearly remember that when i nearly lost hope, i just stepped on the up-and-down path, going through the "lalang" and little tree trunks, not giving heed to the scratches on my arms and legs. i even thought that if this wasn’t the last hill, i’m gonna just live here from now onwards. but, know why i said "nearly lost hope"? ‘coz a while after acting like a barbarian, i saw the others out there through the trees, eating and laughing….. and i just couldn’t help it, the joy really OVERWHELMED me. i’m saved!!! oh, that was the happiest moment in my life, walking out of the forest, jumping down, and hearing the others applauding for us. i was given cold beverage, and trust me, it was the tastiest drink i ever had.

it was a great experience nevertheless. though tiring and torturing (mentally), it was fun. i actually sat on a natural swing :P rotan dangling from the trees. guys, you know how much i weigh, but it made no noise in supporting me when i sat on it. it’s pathetic, but yeah, i was amazed :P the power of nature

and i saw a middle-aged couple. the husband held a wood and the wife at the other end, the husband pulled his wife along while hiking. whenever there are little slopes, he would go down first, hold her hand, and help her down.. so sweet :)

i ain’t sure if i’m going again next week. my friend asked, "Will you come back next week?" i simply said, "if i was crazy" and now, i think i’m crazy..

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happy birthday to me~

April 21st, 2007

this year’s really special and weird, i’ve had the best birthday eve, yet the lousiest birthday……. my mean family went for my cousin’s wedding in miri, leaving only my bro and i at home… on my B-DAY!!!


however, i’ve decided to only remember the happy times of my b-day…

on its eve, my friends got me presents, and gave me a surprise :P LOL the Tiramisu.. oh no. it’s great, guys! thanks!!!!! and the presents too. they are… wow! u guys really know me very well and know what i really need :P though they look simple, sound simple, stuff like notebook, colour pencils :P a really really special card, pencil case, tupperware stuff…. etc. and a doggy!! but they are really meaningful, AND useful :P i really really thank God for blessing me with all these good friends :)

besides, i’ve received many "HAPPY BIRTHDAY’s" this year, including those from my cousins and friends whom i didn’t see for a long time. and then, forgive my "stupidness" :P i made a wish to God that i hope next year, i can hear 100 "Happy Birthday’s"……………………………… ok, sorry

anyways, the day’s gonna be over in 45 minutes, and i’ve really enjoyed, and appreciate it :)

Be Glad For What You Get In Life, For Everything You Have Is Not A Coincidence, Not Something You Earn, Not Something You Deserve.. Every Single Thing Is A Blessing From God :)

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metho sports carnival

January 30th, 2007


though this may sound pathetic, since i’ve been in smk metho for the seventh year now, but this year is the first time i really enjoyed the annual sports day, and actually took part… 8×100m relay. though we didn’t get in top three, it’s indeed a good experience.. practising for it, discussing it, feeling nervous bout it, and most importantly, actually participated in it. it’s my last year in metho, thank God that there’s one more memorable event during my stupid years in this school full of torture and sufferings. yet form 6 is indeed more fun..

anyways, i watched some other events, long jump and track races :P it was fun witnessing kangaroos jumping far, landing on the sand, and bullets dashing on the tracks…. wow

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in memory of…

January 27th, 2007


it’s been nearly a year now.. i can’t remember the exact date, not even the month.. perhaps, deep down inside, i dun wanna remember… it’s the sadness, and regret, and more guilt.

you’re really a great partner. the greatest one, ying xiong, and i really really miss you. i can’t work out exactly how i’ll let it happen.. how can i not take good care of you and let you…. leave me?

so, i decided to write down everything nice and sweet and loving and caring and memorable about you.. i’ll never forget you though, for the rest of my life, for my whole life. coz you worth the honour and appreciation..

still remember that when i just came back from ns, i was so afraid that you’ll bark at me u noe :P u stupid doggy.. hehe. but luckily u didn’t :) u just looked at me with innocence… so cute when i think of it. perhaps u’re confused, wondering where i’ve gone for such a long time (ns, dear :P), or perhaps u think this one person looks familiar, but why can’t i remember her?? whatever :P the point is u didn’t even bark at me. i was soooo happy you know :D and nervous that you would, i remember me walking so quickly into the house when i got down the car. so that you won’t get the chance to let out any barking :P my heart will really break if u do…

and i remember how sweet you are. whenever i sit outside, trying to keep you company, you’ll come close and lay at my feet. u don’t know how touched i was :P stupid me

and u’re always on diet. everyone keeps on asking me why you’re so skinny. i can really see your bones :P perhaps it’s coz i didn’t give you much food :( but then i realise that you don’t finish your food if they are too much. then there’s this hypothesis. you wanna keep fit so you can go out and in thru ah ma’s gate… u wants freedom and u’re indeed so clever hehe

remember? once i heard mom and yi and there’s other ppl again i think, they’re calling your name. i went out and check things out. you’re in the middle of the gate bars, gonna go enjoy ur freedom again. mom calling u to come back in. but you just stuck urself there, looking at her and going out again. and then i called your name, and u rushed back in :D i was so surprised and overwhelmingly happy :P u don’t know how much that action means to me…

and u’ll always look at me with those innocent eyes when i stand at the door, eating something. who can resist it? and then i’ll end up sharing the food with u… angry that moment but feeling sweet too :) you’re so smart. using psychological tactics :P haha

and last cny, or the one before it? :P sorry, i dun remeber :( should’ve written this blog earlier… anyways, that cny, i went to uncle’s house, and you’ll follow me there, and of coz you’re not allowed to go into the house. when i come out later, i found my slippers gone. u stupid doggy ‘gonggong’ them back!!! oh no… and the point is, when i go back and wear them, and go to cousin’s house again, you’re caught doing the stupid thing again! u did it twice or three times. as a revenge for not bringing you in or what? lol

and then there’s this really stupid one… once when the car goes out, i think we’re going to the school that morning, we saw you in a really weird position, crouching in the bushes.. we all felt weird, but the answer came quick later, a dog you always mess around with goes near and when he/she passes you, you jumped out on it!! you ambushed him!!!!! oh no, where did you learn it? did you sneak in behind me when i was watching tv? and then some time later, i realized that you’re doing it again, and again… hey, did you join the doggy force…?

there are so many great and funny things about you that i will never forget.. but this is getting too long now so guess i’ll stop it.. for now :P there’s always part II, III, IV, V……..

i promise i’ll never ever forget you :)

Monday, October 05, 2009

imported II

ju-on~~~

January 14th, 2007

oh no! this could be the WORST day in my life… juz the morning yet lots of bad things are happening to me. firstly, my reallyyyyy stubborn papa just doesn’t wanna tell me his salary that i can’t fill up the form, and now cikgu has given it back and insists on me filling it. but he juz doesn’t understand… my papa doesn’t even wanna lie!! he’s really a stubborn, foolhardy, strong-headed old man!! once he holds onto sth, he juz won’t let go his principle!!!

then i got back some test papers.. 2/20 for chemi, and 7/18, the LOWEST in class, for maths1. and then there are 3 experiment reports to be done, 2 must be passed up tml, and then cikgu "negetik" asks us to do no.1 to 24 for exercise.and then there’s trigono test tml or the day after it, and then there’s maths 1 test on wed, and then there’s chemi test on thur…

aarrrggghhhhh!!! so much ju-on!! n then the worst thing is my fren’s gonna do sth really bad to me!! it may sound stupid but it really really matters to me!!! adeline lau chiaw chiaw, u want me to mention ur name, so here it is!! u betrayed me!!! arrrggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

imported from the other blog I

so blogspot's blog-importing thing isn't working for me, so.. i had to do this manually

MUET (Student life)

October 2nd, 2006


MUET is just around the corner.. the speaking will start next week. mine is on the 11th. so, i have to do A LOT of practices coz my group didn’t do much in the past. after doing the MUET practices, it’s like all my energies are sucked out by the Dementors. got back home, juz sleep Zzzz… can’t even revise for my final exam! but since i’ve promised Miss Francisca i’m gonna get the 10th rank, guess i’ll have to work like cow anyways..

Life’s never easy, being a student, it’s tiring with overwhelming exams and assignments; being a working fellow, boring and monotonous work. but still, i prefer studying, coz it’s fun and i get to learn new things.

like Forrest Gump said, life’s like a box of chocolate, you’ll never know what you’ll get next.. there are always surprises in the chocolate box :D hope i’ll get belgian milk choc tomorrow… LOL :P

where have our babies gone??

so in TDR II, we carried out a series of "mind-torturing" procedures, causing this..




 to produce a decent genomic DNA which was supposed to look sth like this:
















After a series of labourious methods:



"mortar-ing" onions with super freezing cold Nitrogen



to the extent that there were snowflakes formed



and HongSan driven mad..



then running them thru gel electrophoresis





then, at last, wat did we get?
......
nothing. just no bands. no bands!! we were really disappointed that not even one photo of the UV image were taken.. sorry for that but, really, it's REALLY disappointing that we lost all our babies after such labourious and time-consuming (took us weeks!!) work.. *sighs* the worst thing being: i did make a lil mistake when loading the sample.. *SIGHS*