coz it's bittersweet :)

sometimes, i wonder... how can u enjoy ur life? it's full of miseries, disappointment, conflicts, and even desperation.
there are always people who give up their precious life, committing suicide.
reading the news, the fatality in wars intimidate us.
every second, incurable diseases, AIDS, cancers, etc. attack one's life.
HOWEVER,

we see that there are STILL people who sacrifice their life for other parties.
fighters die in wars, trying to protect and stand up for justice.
patients actually fight hard against whatever diseases they have, instead of just giving up.
it seems like.. life's not that cheap, not sth we should give up easily..

then recently, i found the answer, why people treasure LIFE... coz it's bittersweet =) u gain sth when u seem to be suffering.
u feel God's existence when u're sick, alone, desperate.
u feel a friend or friends' love when u thought no one cares bout you
u feel the sweetness of life after u get through a challenge in life

life CAN be terrible, torturing... but anyone who gives it up is STUPID. coz life's also educating, hopeful, meaningful and memorable. everyone's is..

it's bittersweet... =)

Life goes on..

it's weird that we're in trouble, we tend to think about strange stuff.
These are the stupid stuff i thought of when i was (and is) sick:

1) The first and utmost importantly, i wanna have a boyfriend. it seems like a boyfriend will always look after you and care for you no matter what happens. and when i'm sick, i wish there's that someone looking after me and just be with me.

2) Perhaps.. i have Hepatitis B? LOL. this one is real funny. i ain't even sure what are the symptoms of it :P

3) can i escape classes? or.. church? i'm really sorry for this one. i shouldn't be thinking that way. but it seems that after jane's gone, i'm not that into church stuff anymore. i'm really really sorry. i wish to be like last time, thinking about God all the time, thanking Him for stuff, saying sorry for stuff, and wanting to pray and talk to Him always... but, no matter what, i still love you, God. even though i can't tell you by mouth, i still want you to know through these words..

romantic OneTreeHill

Remember tonight, for it is a beginning of always. A promise, like a reward for persisting through life so long alone. The belief in each other and the possibility of love. A decision to ignore or simply rise above the pain of the past. A covenant, which at once binds two souls and yet severs prior ties. The celebration of the chance taken, and the challenge that lies ahead. For two will always be stronger than one. Like a team, braced against the tempest's of the world. And LOVE. Will always be the guiding force in our lives. For tonight is mere formality... Only an announcement to the world for feelings long held. Promises made long ago in the sacred space of our hearts.

... it's a speech Lucas (Chad Michael Murray) wrote for his uncle's wedding ceremony, in One Tree Hill. How touching it is.. and i love it so much