imported III

in memory of…

January 27th, 2007


it’s been nearly a year now.. i can’t remember the exact date, not even the month.. perhaps, deep down inside, i dun wanna remember… it’s the sadness, and regret, and more guilt.

you’re really a great partner. the greatest one, ying xiong, and i really really miss you. i can’t work out exactly how i’ll let it happen.. how can i not take good care of you and let you…. leave me?

so, i decided to write down everything nice and sweet and loving and caring and memorable about you.. i’ll never forget you though, for the rest of my life, for my whole life. coz you worth the honour and appreciation..

still remember that when i just came back from ns, i was so afraid that you’ll bark at me u noe :P u stupid doggy.. hehe. but luckily u didn’t :) u just looked at me with innocence… so cute when i think of it. perhaps u’re confused, wondering where i’ve gone for such a long time (ns, dear :P), or perhaps u think this one person looks familiar, but why can’t i remember her?? whatever :P the point is u didn’t even bark at me. i was soooo happy you know :D and nervous that you would, i remember me walking so quickly into the house when i got down the car. so that you won’t get the chance to let out any barking :P my heart will really break if u do…

and i remember how sweet you are. whenever i sit outside, trying to keep you company, you’ll come close and lay at my feet. u don’t know how touched i was :P stupid me

and u’re always on diet. everyone keeps on asking me why you’re so skinny. i can really see your bones :P perhaps it’s coz i didn’t give you much food :( but then i realise that you don’t finish your food if they are too much. then there’s this hypothesis. you wanna keep fit so you can go out and in thru ah ma’s gate… u wants freedom and u’re indeed so clever hehe

remember? once i heard mom and yi and there’s other ppl again i think, they’re calling your name. i went out and check things out. you’re in the middle of the gate bars, gonna go enjoy ur freedom again. mom calling u to come back in. but you just stuck urself there, looking at her and going out again. and then i called your name, and u rushed back in :D i was so surprised and overwhelmingly happy :P u don’t know how much that action means to me…

and u’ll always look at me with those innocent eyes when i stand at the door, eating something. who can resist it? and then i’ll end up sharing the food with u… angry that moment but feeling sweet too :) you’re so smart. using psychological tactics :P haha

and last cny, or the one before it? :P sorry, i dun remeber :( should’ve written this blog earlier… anyways, that cny, i went to uncle’s house, and you’ll follow me there, and of coz you’re not allowed to go into the house. when i come out later, i found my slippers gone. u stupid doggy ‘gonggong’ them back!!! oh no… and the point is, when i go back and wear them, and go to cousin’s house again, you’re caught doing the stupid thing again! u did it twice or three times. as a revenge for not bringing you in or what? lol

and then there’s this really stupid one… once when the car goes out, i think we’re going to the school that morning, we saw you in a really weird position, crouching in the bushes.. we all felt weird, but the answer came quick later, a dog you always mess around with goes near and when he/she passes you, you jumped out on it!! you ambushed him!!!!! oh no, where did you learn it? did you sneak in behind me when i was watching tv? and then some time later, i realized that you’re doing it again, and again… hey, did you join the doggy force…?

there are so many great and funny things about you that i will never forget.. but this is getting too long now so guess i’ll stop it.. for now :P there’s always part II, III, IV, V……..

i promise i’ll never ever forget you :)